我的朋友 可不可以不要走样
一份关系 可不可以建立了就一辈子
我倔强 你牛脾气 硬碰硬的
我在意 然后假装不在意 不希望真的变得不在意了
我想告诉你 我在意

What if a person can shut off all her feelings just like a vampire, not to care,no where to be hurt, being calmed and just be your true self.

What if....I feel when i wish to,just for those I care.

想家了

至少当我需要一个人 陪我吃一顿饭 家里和你永远是最好的选择
我想逃 我叹 所以我回家去 家是多么的自在
你可以随心所欲 爸他会为我三餐烦恼 给我买来一大堆的东西
妈 会在你睡前看你还满床是笔记 给你端上爱心燕窝

总是有些时候觉得我不属于这里 不属于任何纠纷
我直 我凭感觉 我倔强
我真的觉得 有点累
要学会 自强

一觉醒来，头还是一样那么重。鼻子还是不听话，使劲打喷嚏，让她的主人很不好过。
原本空空的垃圾袋现在已经装满卫生纸。

很想忍耐不吃药。
终于还是耐不住，吃药去了。=(

鼻水快停。
明天给我好好的。乖。

Bye

好了，又再一次得把我跑得驷马难追的心情找回来。

再见!不知什么时候再回来xD

只是好期待7月的假期..

要回去拼搏了............=(

人性百态，我该从何读起？

我这个人，如果对一个人印象很好，那么她在我心中会一直都好。

若是对一个人印象不好，无论过了多久，心里都好像觉得有点怪。

我有些朋友，以往在我面前说这个人多么不好。
我信了。因为她真的把她说得一无是处。
怎么又看见他们拍着肩膀。在面子书侃侃而谈呢？

是我，太不近人情？还是不够善良？
还是他们太善忘？

车术

不知道是不是遗传了我妈的车术，我的驾车技术才那么烂。不过我妈胜过我，胜在她大胆，和有经验。我就，一个字，惨。

罗里大量一点，长一点的，我就开始怕。若不是有人在我隔壁，叫我‘割啦割啦，踩油，快点’，我宁愿跟在罗里后面慢慢走。（我知道跟在罗里后面不好，吸尘又被弹石头，所以我会尽量离远一点。）

泊车更死，。凡是要停车下车，车多的地方，我都不打算要驾，因为...我会方寸大乱。不是没有试过，某天跟我妈去超市，当天还早车不多，就想试下挑个位park,结果过了很久，都没办法。最后连我妈都放弃我了，干脆踢我下车，她自己来。结果，下车后，在后面观看的一个uncle，走过来说叫我以后park那种直直插进去的位置就好了。o.o''

以前看人家驾车，心想以后，自己会驾车就可以不用靠别人，去自己要去的地方。以为驾车只需有了个驾驶执照就应该no problem。可是看我现在.....我问xt敢不敢给我一个人驾出大街，他说:"不敢～”....，他是唯一最常坐我车的人，也不信任我。

我不想以后20来岁才被人捉住来训练我驾车。=( 啃书容易过驾车很多，这种要操作机器的事情真难搞。

陌路

常常遇到一些曾经很熟悉的人，有的和你插肩而过，有的甚至当头碰个着。
缓缓升起手，本想say Hi,那么久没见。
眼神停在他的身上，正想扬起嘴角。
那人却懵然一副看不见你的样子。
收起刚要崛起的手，和缓缓向上弯的嘴唇。
我也装酷，我也无所谓。
你是认不得我了吗？
你渐渐走远，我慢慢学会淡然。 
一转身，便成了陌路。

i wish i am one of them

damn worry currectly..

Gambateh.

Prove it.

我想你了..

这里的cafeteria有卖包，有卖kayang包，panda包，花生包，巧克力包还有很多很多包，就是没有叉烧包=.=

who are you? i know

i do what i do,who are you to judge me.I smile whenever i want,i cry whenever i have to and i talk whenever i like.Just as simple as that.

And you,don't show me your silly stupid face when you're lying to me.I have seen through your horrible mask and no more afraid.So,please stop acting in front of me because i never know which day comes and i couldn't bear on it anymore.Dont pretend or camouflage,you're not an iguana,never ever make use of my sympathy,because i won't pity on you.Even when you cry in fornt of me,i know you're pretending,because i know who are you.I am tired.

Don't shout at me or i will do the same at you ! Don't act rude to me or i will explode at that instant.
you know who you are.

我想家

患了个大伤风，来到这里以后身体好像都特别弱。没有带到很多药，所以连药也不敢多吃，Tissue也不敢多用，现在才知道家有多好，有爸爸妈妈在有多好。现在，我连想吃个清淡热腾腾的粥也无从而得，苦，现在才知道能吃到那么简单的食物也是种幸福。新年的假期后，为了追上功课，一直都好像robot不停地忙，不停地做这个做那个，还要准备Cny event，练习等，真的是太累了。到底多久我才能好好休息。一路来走到这里，我已经快要没有元气了。希望这两个月快一点过，我能够 真正回家去。=(

不断安慰自己时间是过得很快的。终究现实是残酷的。眨了眨眼，我还是在这里，时间还是只过了一秒。事情往往在我们回头看时才显得轻松，而过程却是痛苦的。加油加油。

11.1.2011

a nice date.11.1.2011
but still,i am bound to books..


and the scenario is 4 of us in the room regardless of races felt sleepy @.@


Gambateh,i gonna face my maths tomorrow.


but i am still blogging >.<

E.X.A.M

I am in exam week
for 4 days..
after that i will return home for my mid-sem break for semester 2
I don't know why i am totally not in exam mood
i try to press on to myself 'it's exam now,come on,u shouldn't have rest'
but it failed =p
i even took an one hour nap before sitting for Biology paper

Maybe it's a good sign
showing that i have good preparations =p

but in the other ways round,

i am worried for missing out some important parts that made me blank when i see my exam paper

nevertheless,i am counting down for the days i finished my UPS2

it will definitely be Full Of Joy =)

Belated

it have been a very very very very long time i didnt update my blog.
Tonnes of works are waiting for me
and i am now preparing for my final exam
it is important indeed
i am worrying
there are too much things to be finish in the instant


Matric life is not as easier as i or all of you perceive
maybe others will fight for this line.
but it's alright
or maybe u will find out the course you are followed now is harder than mine
yet i think only the one who went through this will know what is it all about


how we are going to survive
how we rush for everything
how we as a non bumiputera here fight for everything we think we should possess.


Time rush
but i did have a very great mid autumn celebration here
the Chinese have our own celebration
lantern were all in the fields and laughters were everywhere
and this is precious although we are forced to go back to our hostel after 11.00p.m


This is the warmth,and i find out i am contented with this


belated HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL ya




home is the only sanctuary in this messy world.i truly belive

28 th july

7 July 2010

have been a long long time i didnt update my blog
busyyyy
once again,back to ss
home is the true sanctuary
and kmph is the hell esp the toilet and the food
wuwuwu T^T

everything is going too fast
UPS(matrix 1st mid-sem exam)was over
and now we gonna challenge the harder 1.pspm in the end of the year

Teh set off already
she left msia
how i miss her and the days we still in secondary scol
ate laksa every recess time
bluffed in the tuition class
we laughed,chatted and teased each other
everything changed
i duno when will be the next time we meet
and now i realised a chinese proverb天下无不散之宴席

1st of aug i gonna leave ss and back to kuantan again
to start off my next phase of tough life there@@

the second month in kmph

it is 8/6/2010




a tired tuesday
pile of homeworks is waiting for me
but i feel really exhausted and disgusted to do that

everythings is going against me
not everything ..>< but most of it
chew yan and xuan ling stay in the same block with me
but the pity me
now
may have to move to block a1 where it is very very far to block B
while both of them move to B2

i am feeling very desperate now
and i really hope that it's a false news


To Be Continued.............................

unsatisfied

lets talk about my spm result
i dreamed of the day distributing results for 2 nights
nervous,tension
and almost get a heart attack

and the results i got yesterday
is full a..
still acceptable
but dissapointed
9 A+,and 1 A-(chinese)

unsatisfied
dont say i tried to show off
there's nothing to be proud of
*i hope i can be proud of my results too*
*frankly,i feel shame and regret instead*

others may feel such results considered good
but i really dont feel lor.
justttt,speechless
because this is my fate
so,i have no choice but to accept it


i dont feel happy of my results
------------------------------------------------------

but the school overall result for individual performance improve this year
and all my classmates and friends have a very good result

next,i am worried of my future
can i get a scholarship
what courses should i take

speechless

p/s:dont read this if you hate emo post
    i'm just bluffing ..it's craps

arrrrggggghhhh..very disheartening
do you ever feel desperate in something
that's when you had tried really very hard to make it success
once,twice,thrice
but it dont make sense harrrrr


i swear i wont do that super duper stupid thing again
i get nothing but in the end
hurt myself
everytime it ends up like that


feel very frustrating,dissapointed
they never changed
they dont care
then what the point i care
UseLess!!!!


i'll go for the one who really cares
everyone changed
and so did i


i think later i'll mask and arm myself


what the point i treat others with my true heart ?

为什么永远在乎的只有我

Trust Me Please

many Unexpected incident occured this few days
All Out of my Expectation
Out of Control
but i just let it be