Words and thoughts

I dunno where to start and how to put these into words. But i guess to write it down is the best way to remind myself of what knocks me hard and my thoughts about it and how a today-me deal with it. Or perhaps I might have a brand new perspective after growing up (btw now i'm a grown up slap), so when i wander too far, i can come down back to the originals.

1.To keep one's word 
No, don't look at me like that. I'm not saying that i never fong fei geh. But whenever i do, i do it for a good reason. Like having urgency, when my family/ important friends need me, white lie to reject someone i really wouldn't go out with or when i'm overwhelmed with busy stuffs so i might forget what i promise.

But generally, I do as I said. So I hate it when people ask me to turn someone down, hello, that's a promise between us. I don't think you have the right to tell us what to do. You can have your choice but let me decide mine.

2. To speak what you think
 I found it often difficult to lie/ flatter, coz i'm never the kind of person who sweet talks others fml. And I'm guilty about that. So when i said: you're beautiful. I'm 99% true down in my heart, I found i have OCD on this context, coz i always want my words and thoughts to be in accord. When the condition allows, I speak my mind but when it don't I keep silence. I wonder how others deal with this?

3. Do not let the sentence hangs in the middle
Words are like sword and normally we hurt or get hurt by words easily.  Did you really say what i think i heard? That's the part we often missed. I have got stabbing pain for letting my sentence die off in the middle and people misunderstood me.

And there's no way you can clarify yourself, if you do, they will judge you as your Daddy's little princess/ KiaSu/ Stubborn/ Ostentatious/ Name-it-all-you-can-think. So you just go to your little corner and mourn at your stupidity. So you might as well let your whole idea get presented coz it may just cost you another 2 seconds.

4. To keep words direct and straight to the point
Xt just told me about the movie ' Imitation Game'. I haven't watch it yet but it sounds like a good movie. You encode and i decode that's the fundamental of communication. But not everyone decodes the same as you did.

Say for example, you said: 'Hey, we are going for dinner tonight.' What pop up in my mind is: Okie.So...? And I replied: 'Where are y'all going?' out of courtesy.

How on earth can I know that you've hidden meaning of invitation in that sentence. Just say 'Let's go for dinner tonight!' Would it be better?

 ......Is this only happen to me?